Saturday, January 6, 2007
Things I Like. Also, my Death List
1. What I do
2. Hose clamps
3. Zip ties
4. Jumping off the boat from a halyard
5. Our tiny dinghy and its 15 horse engine
6. What I will do in the future
7. The people at Tropical Sails
Death List
1. The Gusher 10 manual bilge pump, its bad attitude and all of its kin
2. Mold on my straw hat
3. When people growl while working
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
We're All in the Same Boat Here, Guys
All of the people around these islands are families on vacations. Here we are, 4 of us of similar age and eager to sightsee, and I recently found myself wishing I too were on a family vacation. Traveling with friends is great, but as we get older, family trips are fewer and farther between, and their tone is changing. I yearn for the good old days.
On family trips, there was a lot of bonding involved and it’s okay to get annoyed with one another. "I don't want to go to the 30 millionth museum in Paris, I don't care if they're giving away the Mona Lisa! " "Okay kids, run up and check if they have a vacancy for the 20th time." "They have Gucci in the states, get back in the car!"
Family vacations were tornado-like tours of every historical, topographical, cultural and aesthetically pleasing site within a 1000-mile radius of each hotel or tent, each day. Guidebooks were sometimes involved, but there was a lot of behind-the-scenes planning by the 'rents. "We'll tell them it's a short hike, throw on the Barbara Streisand, drive into the Alps and before they know it, we'll all be climbing up vertical caves deep in the heart of Switzerland. … I don’t think we’ll hear the whining in the caves."
Every re-occurring trip was pumped to the max. “Ashley, want to wake up at 5 and get in 10 miles before breakfast so we can water-ski before lunch (sail if it’s windy, read if it’s raining)?” “This family makes first tracks and is last on the lift.” It was good to pack all that in there. Now I realize how precious vacation time is and how much there is to see and do.
Ahh well, someday I can englighten my own family. Today was a beautiful day on Saba Rock. Families are all around. They build memories and annoy one another while sailing aboard chartered chariots of holiday cheer. “Honey, pull in the gosh darn jib. Timmy, what did I say about handstands on the lifelines! Dakota, tell your new friend Dakota to go back to her own family and leave the Cheezits here. Randy! For the last time, if you play with the gaff, somebody is going to lose an eye.”
Yikes, this kind of reminds me of my own crew. Oh crew, I guess you’re family. But seriously, no Barbara Streisand.
Ahh!! Isla del Encanto

Remember that time we were all invited to give speeches at the Arecibo Observatory? Me too.
Can you believe it? Neither could I. We show up for a tour of the largest radio telescope in the world and they ask us to give speeches!! What do we know about top-secret, super-duper-intense technology as used in such movies as Goldeneye 007 and Contact?!
Alot. So much, I can't even write it all down. We just know that much. Trust us. Because they did. and you should. Okay, bye.
DISCLAIMER
Monday, December 11, 2006
Marking the True Departure From Home


The disappearance of land from line of sight isn’t all that unusual or exceptional. However, when it happens for the first time and one is intending to sail a good part, if not entirely, around the globe, loosing sight of land is a rather large moment. For me, it wasn’t a memorable moment immediately. I wasn’t sitting on deck staring out with a hand shielding my eyes from the sun, watching wistfully as land morphed from a blob to a dot. Somehow, in between setting the sails and discussing the weather, the coast of the United States had faded below the horizon and the planet’s curvature now refused to display anything but a clean, endless parade of waves and sky.
It’s funny how you can’t actually participate in these moments until they have passed. When we cast of the lines at the dock in New York City, the momentous theatrical feeling one might expect was not present. We were just us, the Aldebaran crew, going for a sail…around the world. Goodbye, parents, goodbye friends. We love you, but we’ll see one another soon.
My moment came later, on watch alone. We were in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean and I could nearly feel my brain wrinkling with new emotions. And yet, people do this trip all the time. Once a year, it’s a competition: The Newport to Bermuda Race. But no, this time was different, this particular piece of ocean in the middle of the vast blue landscape, was a wide-open, wonderfully lonely world. It was like finding oneself suddenly naked in an empty auditorium. Something feels odd, but something bigger feels beautifully at ease. I’m going to dance on the stage now, spin and leap like a fool. Because there is no show, there is no audience.
I’m on watch alone and there’s no one for miles. At least, no one we could reach via VHF radio because that works on line of sight, as I recently learned from the ‘Why SSB?’ Section of the obtuse SSB manual… Waves. Wind. I’m going to remember this for the rest of my life. No one ever thinks, “I’m going to forget this experience immediately,” but nevertheless, I’m holding on to this, my first true experience of falling in love with the ocean. Lakes and day-sails are small tastes. This, this is going to make me cry. This, this is it.
We’ll see how I feel after the 26 day passage to the Marquesas.
We’re leaving Bermuda tomorrow. I’ll get back to that later.
Existential Moment in the Head


This past evening, I awoke in the middle of the night to hit the head. The moonlight, on its way through the prism in the deck, played tricks on my tired mind, making me look older. I was simultaneously thinking about aging and wondering how quickly I would be able to fall asleep again, when I had an insentient philosophical thought: Before I die, a full bladder will summon me from dreams hundreds of times and I will answer the call in bathrooms all over the world. Each bathroom will be further along the continuum of my life and thus, a new point on the graph of my personal growth.
I extorted three points from this series of thoughts.
ONE: The insanity plea is a nice little safety net to keep in my back pocket.
TWO: Really, though. Whether between trees or walls, the bathrooms one uses in the middle of the night are indicative, in some ridiculous way, of the shape of a life. A place one has decided to spend a night represents some kind of planning, or lack thereof, that says something about place of mind and place in life.
THREE: This series of thoughts in the head at 2AM was pre-empted by my unconscious mind attempting to wrap itself around what is currently going on in my life: I am growing and changing. I live on a sailboat.
The moments between full and empty bladders are the moments of true understanding. Life as I know it is changing right out from under the bathrooms in which I deposit my clear and copious evidence of hydration.
